Why Should It Be?

Music and lyrics © 2011 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

I still remember when I was a child,

the world made no sense

but it worked just the same.

Now I am older and have more control

but the world is still confuses me.

What can I say?

I want to believe, that the reason lay outside of me.

But somewhere in the dark I can feel,

and it wants to light up like a spark.

But why, why won’t it grow, when I yearn for the fire to glow?

Is the past sitting still on the path that I’ve built?

Is there something that I’m supposed to know?

For wise, wise is the man, with his words in the palms of his hands.

Can I put into action these things in my head?

Can my hands do the things that I’ve said?

Or are they just dead?

No golden embers, no tears are remembered.

The sun is not coming, the moon is not here.

Lay in a course, without cart, without horse,

without mention of why you’re just hiding in fear.

This sad music could play all night long,

and no one would know what it means.

This bad habit could break all the ties,

and it makes me go back to my dreams.

But why, why should it be, that the only way out is to sleep?

Is the thought of the world too much for me to bear?

Is there something that I’m supposed to be?

For high, high is the ground,

far away from the world I am found.

If I stay here alone long enough without touch,

can I learn how to live with this crutch?

Do I deserve such?

I Am You

Music and lyrics © 2011 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

Your face in the water, my eyes floating down to you.

I could make it so much harder, but I’ll stay true.

All the times you wanted me to come inside because it was too dark

and that’s what kids are supposed to do. They are supposed to do.

Your hands on a hammer, my swing closing in on you.

I can’t seem to shake this feeling, that one is two.

Every time I look in my eyes, I can’t help but wonder if

the mirror is just you staring back at me, unknowingly.

Every smile I cast seems borrowed, every lie I pass seems sorrowed,

every mile I’ve walked seems to be subdued.

It’s like they belong to you.

Why can I feel you?

And how can one be two?

I can’t help but feel I’ve shamed you,

even though I know it’s not true.

Am I even half the man you wanted?
What have I turned in to?

Your voice singing quiet, my words almost feeling true.

I want to remember so bad, but I sink through.

In a world of shame and sorrow, was I your last hope to

borrow meaning in the face of adversity? Or am I just debris?

When I’m crazy, when I’m charming. When I laugh too loud or I sing,

something in my head speaks from out of view.

It tells me I am you.

Alpha Wave

Music and lyrics © 2011 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

Sinking slowly deep inside.

I know my reasons aren’t right, but

everything just seems so pointless,

and I am far beyond depressed.

You could take my money.

You could take my shelter too.

I don’t need nobody.

I don’t need some pity queue.

Take my past and present.

Take my stupid future too.

Take my so-called talent.

Take it all, cause I am through.

CHORUS

I don’t want to think anymore.

Don’t want to feel this way.

I don’t want to talk through the pain.

Just want to run away.

I don’t want to make a mistake.

Don’t want to fade away.

I don’t want to go till’ I break.

Just want an alpha wave.

Faking solace, I can’t hide.

Oh, emotions burst as they collide.

Then everything goes black and white.

I turn to flames as I ignite.

Don’t forget to make it.

Stand up straight and watch your dress.

Be a man and take it.

What is life without success?

You don’t have the body.

You are ugly. You are screwed.

Everybody’s better.

What the hell is wrong with you?

CHORUS

Run until the lights are frozen

I can’t feel the ground.

I can’t fake another lie and

I will not calm down.

CHORUS

Or So It Seems

Music and lyrics © 2011 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

Oh, I don’t need this.

Another pointless situation

full of pointless accusations.

Oh, what’s your purpose?

Did you live your life in one night,

biding time until the sunrise?

Time doesn’t move.

It just stays there…Forever…

I’m not even there.

What’s the problem?

The problem.

CHORUS

Memories are flowing over me

like autumn leaves.

It’s only me here now.

Or so it seems. Or so it seems.

Or so it seems. Or so it seems.

Oh, I just sit there.

And I wait for some connection,

be myself get no attention.

Oh, I don’t blame you.

But it’s sad that we’re so different

and your love feels nonexistent.

Things never change.

It’s like a painting of yearning.

You don’t seem to care.

What’s the problem.

What’s the problem? The problem, oh.

CHORUS

Memories are coming back to me, from overseas.

I’ve waited all my life. Or so it seems. Or so it seems.

Or so it seems. Or so it seems.

Oh, I can see it.

We were young and so misguided,

now we’re old and undecided.

Oh, I’m so tired.

But the truth seems far away now,

I just have to find it somehow.

Life circles back, like a planet. I feel it.

Are you aware of the problem.

What’s the problem? The problem, oh.

CHORUS

I Don't Care

Music and lyrics © 2011 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

Why don’t you shut your mouth, it’s getting old.

Did you believe that I could be controlled?

I want out. Another moment more, and I’ll shout.

I’ve drunk it to the bottom of the bottle

and I’m almost out, and that’s why

CHORUS

I don’t care.

This love has gone nowhere.

We cannot be repaired.

I guess that life’s not fair.

You tried to pull me down.

Now I won’t be around.

Take all your empty words.

Fly them away like birds.

How can you smile when you’re so cold inside?

All of your confidence is sweet denial.

I can’t sleep, when I know you’re next to me.

I’ve taken every pill.

I’ve counted every sheep.

They only make me ill.

You’re nothing but a creep, and that’s why

CHORUS

Taking what you want and you leave me in the cold,

and I’m sinking like a rock, never doing what I’m told.

And I want to understand why you’re treating me this way

but I’m getting turned around right before you run away.

So I’m making up my mind and I’m sticking to my guns,

cause I know you’ll never change and I know you’re not the one.

So goodbye to all the lies and goodbye to all the pain

and goodbye to your blue eyes always making me insane.

CHORUS

Did you ever think of me?

Did you ever think that I might feel?

I might feel…

Now you’ve seen the worst of me

Now you’ve seen the worst that I can be.

I can be…

Give Me The World in a Picture

Music and lyrics © 2011 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

Give me the world in a picture.

Driving, from the sun and sea.

Leaving all the things I’ve achieved.

Beauty, in the sky I can see.

At least it’s something.

I just want to be free.

All the answers in the world are overrated.

All the creatures on the land are unrelated.

So with my eyes open I can see their hearts.

One more hand too far away to grab,

I hate it.

Just one more season, then I’ll go.

All the leaves around us seem to know

that I will stay one day and leave, oh.

Yes, I will stay one day and leave, oh.

Give me the world in a picture.

Sunset over mountains and fields.

Empty… Is this how I should feel?

Tomorrow seems to come without end.

Now it’s autumn, and I don’t want to pretend.

All the answers in the world are overrated.

All the creatures on the land are unrelated.

So with my eyes open I can see their hearts.

One more hand too far away to grab,

I hate it.

Just one more season, then I’ll go.

All the leaves around us seem to know

that I will stay one day and leave, oh.

Yes, I will stay one day and leave, oh.

Give me the world in a picture.

Just one more season, then I’ll go.

Give me the world in a picture.

All the leaves around us seem to know.

Give me the world in a picture.

That I will stay one day and leave, oh.

Give me the world in a picture.

Yes, I will stay one day and leave.

Give me the world in a picture, oh.

Give me the world in a picture.

The Poison

Music and lyrics © 2011 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

I can’t figure out why we’re so empty.

Is it because of me?

I know it’s been hard, I know it’s been rough.

Do you still think of me?

Oh the answers, how they don’t come.

How it makes it hard to breath.

But I know you, and I know me.

I just don’t know how to be.

To be…

I can’t figure out why you’re not calling.

Is it because you fled?

I know we said things, I know it’s not right.

Do you still think we need?

Oh the answers, how they hurt me.

How they make it hard to see.

Do I know you? Do I know me?

Do you still belong to me?

All I know is you.

All I can say is sorry.

Sorry.

I’m sorry.

Oh the answers, how they hurt me,

how they make me want to scream.

And the poison lives within me.

I don’t know how I should bleed.

Should bleed.